I am sitting here right now trying to do the homework of a Bible study I am in and ended up in tears instead. It’s hard, cause I can’t always focus to read or stay in a comprehended thought of mind. It’s not something I can relearn – it will just return in time. There is nothing I can do for it – but it is rather annoying! Sometimes, I end up praying in tears cause I have gotten so frustrated over it. I have heard that what I am experiencing is very common for the type of surgery I had. I try every day to spend time reading and praying that it will help to restore sooner. But like everything else it just takes time.
Today, as I was getting ready for the day from a great workout at the gym. I was looking at my newly grown hair and admiring how truly fast it is growing back. It you haven’t been lucky enough to see my new hair style yet then know it is army length. I have been very open now with allowing others to see my head. I don’t think you can see my scare much at all any more. But I was reminder again of the verse in Matthew 10:30 says -”and even the very hairs on your head are all numbered”.
Sometimes, I forget just how much God knows about me. That there isn’t a inch or even a simple hair that He doesn’t know about. I am His perfect and great design and He is the one who knows the best how to heal me!
Isn’t God just amazing? I so love being apart of His perfect design! Even though right now I have moments of struggling with things I don’t have right now in my grasp cause of my surgery. I am more and more in awe of Him everyday and I know He be there to see me through those struggles!
Lest, I forget what He in His mighty power has brought me through and has done for me in this journey and in life alone! I Love you so much Lord and pray to have a heart like Yours!!!!
Please pray that I will be restored in being able to read and comprehend soon.
Girl,
It’s so incredibly awesome to see the amazing miracle God has preformed in your circumstance. I read your blog regularly, but always forget to leave a response (gotta remember to keep scrolling down the page). Thank you for your sweet, submissive spirit – it’s such a challenge as I look at where I am and need to be. What a wonderful example of surrender to Christ – and your transparency is encouraging and inspiring all at the same time. We are praying that God will clear your mind in His timing and that He will give you something sweetly special as you wait on Him. I often drive past your work place on Gemini on my way home from picking Moriah up from Kindergarten. It’s a great reminder to pray for you!
Love ya!
By: The South Bunch on February 11, 2008
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